its okay not to be okayyyy.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010 9:29 AM /
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SHOOOT ME as i've been the laziest bum to blog for i cant even remember how long.
But i've got the sudden urge to blog and so im not gnna ignore it this time. Its about time anyways.
I really dnt know what happened to me updating evry damn week.
The reason i started to blog is well, to look back at my posts and LAUGH, & FEEL EXTREMELY STUPID for even writing half of what i wrote. hahhh
So well i can be letting out a whole lotta shit but I AM NOT cse i really have no idea what on earth is happening around me.
The only thing i've been doing is going to coll and act like nothings happened, putting evry fckin thing behind, going with the flow.
Which is weird cse im usually the person to THINK AND THINK AND THINK and feel emo and suck up and TALK THINGS OUT even if im not the one whos supposed to ,only because i was an emo btch back then who didnt wanna lose ANYTHING/ANYONE.
Oh and im fckin glad im not all that gay anymore, as i realize that it was exactly the reason why ppl take advantage.
College i have to say has been better than ever. :)
Prolly the reason why im even surviving.
Im bored of people who stop talking to me whenever they feel like the dont need to.
As far as im concerned, if someones gnna mean ANYTHING AT ALL to you, why on earth treat them like fck.
And so this time arnd, just so you know im not gnna get drunk crying on the ph TO TELL ILY nor am i gnna pretend like nothings happened WHEN YOU FINALLY get on ur fckin senses to patch things up.
You may be pretty good at that. But i choose not to please your asses.
Grrrrrrrr. Truth is, i am just so mad at EVERYHTING.
ppl who
never appreciate,ppl whom i dnt even
recognize anymore,ppl who would give me up over their own issues,fake coll btches who tries to fit in so bad,HORRIBLEEEEE SERVICE AT PINK,douche bag who thinks im childish and like seriously,
so much for being there when i need you. fcker. Im so mad that even facebook have the tendencies to piss me off. :/
I know im gnna wake up one day and feel extremely fcked for what i've chose to become.
But i guess its about time.To
let go.