deja vu.
Friday, April 30, 2010 3:39 AM /
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Am still keeping my fingers crossed that mum'll let me go tonight.
So anywayssss, it randomly crossed my mind earlier this mornin in the shower, wondering if my life could get any better than this.Cause truly, im happy.I love how everything is now.And i hope&pray they stay that way.No more space for emo bitch.
Got off the shower,got dressed,sat on the comp.
Logged on to his account as i wanted to upload his pics.
NOT A GOOD VIEW ON THE HOMEPAGE.
lol.Well it did get up my head when i first saw it.But then,heres the logic. yea ok i did say about your fugly dress.
And first of all, WHAT THE HECK WERE YOU DOING READING MY BLOG?
anyhoo, sayyyyy whatever you want.SUIT YOURSELF.
I wouldnt have even came to know abt it if i havent have logged in on his account.
That rival we had, FOR ME its long gone.I have better stuffs/people to give a fck on.
Not gonna let this shit repeat itself like a fckin deja vu.
If you're wondering whyyy i said abt the dress, i had my reasons.Which was practically not even my fault.
Time has totally taught me how to not get things like these get to me.
And i wouldnt need anyone to come and try to break me,ever again.
FUCK ALL YOU HATERS.GET YOUR OWN FCKIN LIFE so you'll learn how to not be kepoh about others.
Totally get why u had to feel threatened you insecure fck.
And imma write anything I WANT.do your pathetic self a favor, and try to be a little less nosy.
Save it & shove whatever ze fck you havta say up ur ass!
Ott, my day was good. :)
Followed Tania to Sunway and helped her baby sit. lol.Well ok prolly not, i did ntg much tho she kept forcing me to bond with Aya.Hahaha.
And the only reason i wasnt in my best mood was bcse SOMEONE made me wake up at 7 in the morn when he only fetched me at 12!pfffsh. nothing else.
I have yet to update my blog on the whole load of things thats been happening.
But now, im gonna go give it my best and convince my motherrr once again.
AM SOOOOO GLAD PITBULL'S NOT IN GENTING!yeap, they changed the venue to Bukit Kiara. No more excuses from my mother.Going NO MATTER WHATTT!
Sunday, April 18, 2010 11:48 AM /
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The one night im not in the mood for glee,mcd,texting and most of all FACEBOOK!
& i really have nothing in particular to blog about. So i'll just write the bits & pieces in my head.
- checked out celebrity fitness in pyramid.its well, ideal?
- the first time i didnt walk into Cotton On.now thats very surprising.
- planning to join some kindve business. a job, FINALLY! haha business makes me sound all professional.
- I have craving for creme brulee.REAL BAD.
- have you watched 'According to Greta'?.Well, you totally should.
- stupid nimi deleted me and added me again.&shes blaming it on fb.weird-0.
- I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR FOR ANANTHS PARTY. zomg
- cannot wait for ananths party :D
- i love my cousin. hes a darling.
- ANDREW GARCIA is out?! grrrr. im not watching american shit idol anymore.
- i hate
her.idk whats her whole plan of doing what shes doing. who the fck are you tryna fool loser?
- i dnt understand why are people so fake. well they're prolly immature. cause i used to fake too, when i was YOUNG&STUPID.i know you dont like me, so save it and shove it up ur ass!
- i have absolutely zero idea why the both of us are even holding on to this. i actually am starting to think i dont feel anything at all anymore, and im not afraid to say it.
- but gimme a week or two till i change my mind and it'll be back to square one.I hate when that happens.
- CANNOTTTT miss pitbull. or i'll never forgive myself. lol big words. but no,seriously.
- my sis is psycho.
- i wish i could shoot everyone i dont like. it'll be much easier that way :)
- msn's a byotch. no ones online. :( i guess i'll just havta accept the fact my msn days are longgg gone.
- truth is, i
hate the sight of you.
got a water bottle fullve whiskey in my handbag. :)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010 10:22 AM /
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Its about time i glued my ass to the chair and update my blog.
8/4/2010
Another crashing over Ashley's house at 7 in the morning.haha im guessing she has got to get used to that.Was supposed to meet Rubesh (thrrr i mentioned your name :)) at Pyramid and also shop for the next day.Made sudden plans of meeting up with the gang (Nimi,Kim & Brind) since they were at pyramid too.Had lunch at Nando's.The waiters as Kim would say,were being total assholes and acting like they couldnt hear us.Like why on earth even take up such jobs at the first place then?Im trying so hard to recall what Kim was whining about this time.OH YESS, she kept going on about what to wear and how she couldnt find any friggin dress,also about some rm4.50 kuey teow that brindha didnt let her buy etc etc.Typical Kimberly.Lol was great catching up tho, since i havent been doing the usual lunch date thing at AC with em.
The bestttt part was obviously spending time with my two most favorite people, TARK :).I seriously havent laughed that hard in a longgg time.Madagascar Owl and Flying lizard.And i swear i can still lmfao whenever i think of Rubesh tryna mock my expression about the whole owl thing.Hahaha.I so love the both of em when theyre pms-free and not fighting like 5 year olds.:p
&& bumped into an old friend which i havent spoken to in what seems like ages.Nicoleee :] She hasnt changed a tiny bit.
9/4/2010
Where do i even start? *deep breath*
9.00pm
Met up with Ashley and the gang at some mamak restaurant near Changkat.Lepaked for a bit till we decided to just wait outside of Envie Club (which is pronounced as On-vee btw) for my cousin.Besh arrived 10 minutes later.And as usual, Kim was whining about how she couldve ate 5 more magee goreng while waiting for Nesh.Was so glad Nimi could make it :)Nesh eventually came and got all our asses in.Scott and Kok(if im not mistaken) came along with Nesh.The place was kinda dead earlier, but it got alot better by midnight.Got high pretty soon as they kept filling up our glasses.Well EXCEPT for Nimi of course as her first glass lasted the whole night.Ashley & I probably had the most fun cause we kept laughing for no reason evrytime we drank it up.Best part of the night that i can remember of.
The spoiler?My boyf and Martin couldnt get in cause they were late, it was past-12 and some shit about it being a 21+ club and they might have a raid and stuff.Bt wtheck theres already a bunchve underage kids inside the fckin club.I swear if i was sober i wouldve been shit mad up my head.
Apart of the whole boyf not getting in drama, it was so much fun.YES i still think it was fun even when i embarrassed the fck outta me by falling in frontve him and martin.Okla i gotta confess,i am so blady embarrassed i wanna shoot myself dead and never go out again!Really.I first thought i would feel better (since they didnt manage to make me feel better) by never seeing him again.But i actually think now that i would feel alot better if we go out again, and not fall down.Okay idk if that made any sense.But yea we totally need another clubbing session.To make up to the both of em since we made em look like blady drivers that day.I am so sure they hate us so much deep down.Shouldve seen the look on martins face.He looked like he was cursing us all inside.I remember apologizing but err well, he couldnt care less.
Actually went to Heritage aft leaving Changkat.Was supposed to meet my sis at Manor, but she was alrdy on the way home by the time we got there.Nimi probably wouldve had the mostttt fun there :) DREAM COME TRUE, remember.hahahah.Well at leasttt, she looked like she had fun aft leaving heritage other than just getting stuck with drunk idiots.Also met Prasanth Desperado :) lol guessing he was as equal tipsy as us.
Sooooo, that was basically how it was.
getting high & falling down.Definitely the best way of turning legal ;)
Sorry i left you with another long one to read :)
i wish our hearts could come together as one. ♥
Monday, April 5, 2010 8:53 AM /
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I am sooooo very bored. The only thing that could help me from dying of boredom is eating and blogging.Im starting love blogging more than i thought i would.I love how the words just pours out sometime, how i can tell the world how much i hate certain people just by putting the words together & not care of how they're gonna feel.Cause to be honest, im kind of a chicken to diss you right to your face.And the best way i ever do it is by writing.So i guess i shall be nice and update as frequent as i can before i start college.Before i get tied up with assignments and all those college stuff im gonna loveee. Lol .Call me weird, but im so looking forward to assignments.And i've been so blady excited for college itself tho i havent decided on which coll im going to. But i've made my mind on CIMP. Yes im gonna do that Canadian Pre-U programme.And most probably/hopefully study my butt off to get into Monash.I chose Monash since my mums been so fond of me getting into a University and Monash looked like the only U im ever interested in.
Its a Tuesday tomorrow.And he's off day now are on Tuesdays. Will probably catch a movie or something.I want to watch Remember Me.I am so embarrassed to even say it here that i havent watched it but yea.Not muchve a Rob Pattinson fan as Tania Ashley is, but i'll still go watch it since i heard its a pretty good movie.Not even sure if its playing on the theaters anymore.And i want to do my nails.Its been agessss.And get a dress :) Lol just feel like it.I shall shop till i get frustratedly broke again.
Ananth made my day by telling me about the Genting trip.I am soooooooo extremely excited in a jumping up&down kind of way.Lol not literally. A trip is exactly what i need.No im not depressed or anything .Lately i've just been so happy that i wanna spend so much quality time with my friends.Hahah yes im weird i know.& so i thought Genting would be perfect.But i know the cliche, like how we always plan but tak jadi. And esp when im so excited. :( PFSHH.
Im getting so sick & bored of facebook. Im sure theres a whole lot of you who agree with me.There were days where i used to ditch fb cause it was making me so depressed. LOL but those days are gone. Now i plain hate it. I wish i could kill some/most people in it. Not planning to get Twitter yet. So im stuck with fb at the mo :/
Leighton Meester's face on my new Firefox persona is filling me up with massive jealousy.Which in a good way is driving me to join the gym as soon as possible.Im still confused between Fitness First or Celebrity Fitness in Sunway. Not that i dont have the guts to follow my sis to the celebrity fitness in BV oh please. Im just disgusted to keep bumping into fugly faces who make me sick to my bone.
Since people there are keen of *cough*acting like they own fckin bangsar*cough*.Doesnt people like that make you wanna punch them in their face? And so why should i chose that.Besides,there are hotter guys in Sunway anyway :)
I want/have to do my hair ASAPPPP.Im bored of the whole long hair thing. I guess im gonna cut it short.But not too short.Shoulder-length probably.And highlight a little if my mums willing to be a sweetheart :)
♥
bittersweet eighteen.
Saturday, April 3, 2010 12:32 PM /
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note to self :
ALWAYSSSSS follow your instincts.
I'll elaborate later.
I'll start off from the day that ruined my almost-purrfect eighteen birthday.
The day that i woke up at 6 in the morn and asked mums permission for a total last minute shopping plan with Ashley at KL and she actually agreed to it, miraculously.
I should have known then that something was gonna go wrong.
So i oh so excitedly got off the bed half eyes open,brushed my teeth, packed evrything i needed & left to Ashley's with my pj's.Felt so bad for disturbing in the wee hours of the morning.Went up to her room and got cozy in her bed as she was still half asleep and blabbering something about me calling her at 4am when i actually called her half an hour ago.lol. I loveee her room.Its dark&cold you can sleep forever :)
Woke up at 10am and got ready.Took a blady KTM which made us wait for half an hour.
I OFFICIALLY HATEEEEEEEEE THE FCKIN KTM! reason? keep reading.
These two old hags sitting next to us were bragging among selves,both trying hard to make the other jealous.
The Malay one carrying a fake *cough*Roxy handbag was boasting about her husband buying her a 11 000 bucks ring when her fingers were empty, also about she eavesdropping her 'girls' asking their daddy to buy her a rm46 000 bracelet.
The other chinese with her fake RayBan wasnt as creative so she just lied about how she spent 30bucks on a seafood in Pyramid. But her face was so annoying i felt like punching it.
LOOOOOL
One thing i've learned over the years,
PEOPLE WHO BRAG ARE PLAIN LIARS!
I know a hand fullve people who have everything yet they never brag & thats only cause its real.
So bragging is basically a lying detector.
Ate KFC instead of the usual MCD.The cashier was a weirdo so we got free cheezy wedges :)
Then, we shoppeddddd.
Everything were lower than 50bucks. Yes, sg.wang is definitely the new sunway yaw!
I have no idea why i havent been visiting so often, I probably should :)
We also checked out Bloody Ink. tattoo shop :D I have yet to design my tattoo but i really am planning to settle with a star.After all, the only reason i was attracted with tattoes were because of Rihanna's.
Bliv it or not, i had this voice in my head which kept on going about the phone and what'll be the consequences if i lose it.But I ignored cause i've been using the phone for a quite a while now and it has been with me to many places, including train/bus stations in my side/back pocket.Yet i remember putting it inside my bag but taking it out again cause for some reason, i received many calls that day and the ringtone wasnt as loud as it usually is.
Yes, very weird i know.
So i was in the ktm, and it was packed as usual.We were crowding to get in and this asshole was in front of me pushing/blocking my way.I didnt pay much attention to him as much as Tania did.And neither did i notice he actually slipped his hand in my pocket and TOOK THE PHONE.fckin pickpocket. I realize as soon as i got on the train but it was too crowded to go back and i was so blady panicked.It was obviously too late to catch the bastard then.
Never have it crossed my mind a thing like this would happen to me.Cause this is obviously not my first time taking a public transport.Im always taking public transports.& I've always taken the fckin ktm, with my phone in my pocket.
I guess it was pure bad luck and probably a wake up call.
It was then when i start thinking of how i used to ignore the 'BEWARE OF PICKPOCKET' sign.And it was then that i realize if this could happen, anything worse could happen too.Also how extra careful i should be next time.
It also made me feel so stupid for ignoring my instincts knowing how true they can be.
The only thing i cared about is Roshi.Since its her phone.Im left with no choice but to get her a new phone.WHICH I OBVIOUSLY AM. To those who act all sad on fb,keep your sentiments to urself. I've already checked out and will get is as soon as possible.
Things like these happen and its not like i lost it on purpose or cause i was careless.
Was really not in the mood for my birthday by then.
But yea i wasnt 'down' cause of that.I know i'll definitely be replacing her LG crystal.
Yes i'll enunciate it. IM.REPLACING.HER.LG.CRYSTAL.
My first ever birthday in 2 years without my boyfriend.Which i thought was all the way in Sarawak suffering by the torture of the unnecessary national service practice, and havent been replying my msges nor answering my calls for 2 straight days was what exactly made me a whole lot depressed and not very in the mood for my birthday.
I was so desperate that no matter how tired i already was by still trying to accept the fact that the phones gone, i had to get a new sim card right away, living by the hope that he would try calling by midnight. Miss Ashley contributed by lending me her old phone.As i said, i was desperate.
My head was hurting so much with too many things crowding in,and the last thing i was ever excited about was my birthday.
Wanted to ignore any conversation with anybody at the mo so i just locked myself in the room and played counter strike.
The people in my house probably thought i was 'down' about the whole phone incident.I mean yea of course i was since i know its definitely gonna arise bigger than it should, but i really just didnt want to turn eighteen yet.Not that midnight.
Yet they brought me for supper to Pappa Rich. Preveena also joined :)
But thats not all they had in stock for me.
So we decided to sit outside,like we always do.
Ordered the usual/ favorite ROTI BAKAR SUSU :))
lol that rhymed.
Hot waiter took our order.And i hadddd to have a bad hair day la pfsh.
Then i heard this loud ram.Peeped and saw some loser tryna show off with err,WAJA. haha.So i ignored and concentrated on my phone that i've been fiddling for almost an hour to check if there were any text/call from him.
Just as i was fidgeting my phone, this dude walks up to me and says;
Hello Mame, did you order for cupcakes?
Familiar voice, veryyyy familiar.
IT WAS himmm.
OMG.Again, the phone-losing-panicked face.But this time was definitely for a good purpose :) and the loser i meant earlier was martin :) hahaa.
But well obviously he's no loser.I barely get surprised so this is probably the sweeeeeeeeeetest, unforgettable surprise ever in my eighteen years of living.
The credit mostly goes to my sister & my love.I know i didnt look as surprised/happy/grateful as i was supposed to or how you expected me to.But it really meant sooooo much.So much that i cant find the right words to put together to thank ya'll.
I've also gotta thank my both lovely cousins & preveena (my sister's friend) for actually tagging along:)
Oh and also to Martin. HUGE THANK YOU MARTIN :] Not like he's gonna be reading this but i dont wanna miss out anyone.
Yes i wouldnt miss out my bestie of course.Tho she wasnt there, but wtheck SHES ALWAYS THERE, through almost evry good/bad times in my life and helped me put up with it.I would be totally lost without you.No shit :)
& my love.
Tho you put me through hell for not talking 2 days straight, leaving me with crazy thoughts in mind, wondering what you'll be doing evry 5 minutes, and regretting so much for not talking on the phone the day before like the way we had planned to bcs i was so blady tired, i forgive you. :) Love you a wholeee load baby.
And that was how i turned eighteen.
*smile*
31/03/2010
Practially spent the day thanking evryone who wished me on fb :)
The family (mom,bobs,suresh,shan& I) went to Borneo Rainforest for dinner.
Ate baby's delicioussss Bijoux cupcake for dessert and dozed off :)
The day which definitely didnt start off as good but ended beautifully.Things like these make me realize of so much.Like how im blessed with such gorgeous, wonderful people.People who i want permanently.People who make me whole.& so it hit me,
why care of the jealous materialistic haters when i've definitely got better people to give a fck on.
You have your bad days when it feels like theres just so much drama,or not enough going on at all. But then you have the days you'll never forget the ones that make you into who you're going to be.
Give me reasons to not love her.