think of my head on your chest ♥
Sunday, March 28, 2010 12:52 AM /
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Shopped with Ashley in Pyramid :) Cotton on is loveeeee. & finally got something to wear fer ICC.
Also ate our oh so favourite bacon at BBQplaza.Its the bomb.
Frequency; the future is listening :)
Was really not bad.The opening was pretty good.Im guessing it was Giri's work.If it is, gooooooooood job GiriRao :)).Tho the 'funny' slideshow/behind the scene wasnt so funny.The first ever guest performance was by Annatasha Saifol.She is so adorable, really :)She sang Brick by boring brick by Paramore and my all time favourite,Only One by YellowCard.Made me so blady emo :( Liang & Rina Omar were the hosts which made the show a whole lot better.The only performances which i thought was worth watching were TicTacToe,Pop Royalty & the fourteen year old girl's.The rest, errrrr. Oh and also Sarah Shakira's band performance.If it wasnt for the sucky sound system, they wouldve been pretty good too.
The BEST PART, our screammmmmmmmmm beat Sri Aman's.BOOO! hahah like blady finally.
ICC has always been about bumping into people, you least expect.
your dress obviously suited you well whore. CAUSE IT WAS JUST AS FUGLYYYY.
Overall, ICC was actually good.
:)
And oh so glad i am that it didnt suck as much as last year did.
ICC last year is definitely one of the top in my 'BadDays' list. I could still get mortified by the thought of it.
prasanth got us a cab to KTM :) Dropped at Sentral and took a cab to MidValley.
Blady malay fcking cibai taxi driver cost us 20 BUCKS from sentral to Mid. and he was being so bitchy on top of it. yerrrrrrrk. was so mad.hope he dies!
Met the love of my life at Gardens.
& the four of us had lunch at TGIF.
Ashley i still regret for not ordering your dish.
Its WOW!the most amazing pasta you wouldve everrrr tasted. and no im not exaggerating.
Hated the day so much for ending too fast, cause i could really ask for more hours to spend with him before he leaves.
To National Service all the way in Sarawak. :(
Hes such a great boyf, it made me realize so much that night.
He followed me all the way back home only bcs he was worried of my safety of taking the bus.He's done that before but it didnt mean as much back then.
Godddd boo i actually love you a whole lot then i ever thought i did.
Ignoring all the pain you've caused, it doubts me if theres any other boy who could ever love me the way you do.
And im so sorry.I shouldve totally stayed awake to talk to you last night no matter how tired or how painful my legs were caused by the blady wedges.
Im sorryyyy again, for always screwing up, being a bitch, swearing and breaking up constantly.
Every stupid little arguments and making up im gonna miss :(
Or we should probably be glad for these 3 months cause its only gonna make us stronger.
But whatev, 3 month seems like forever baby.
And im running out of words to say how much i miss you already.
Yes i'll keep listening to my Vanilla Twilight cause thats exactly how i feel about you.
Monday, March 22, 2010 7:17 AM /
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Exact 9 days till i turn legal. & i wont lie,im not even excited.I probably shouldnt yet.
But this time, i wouldnt let it slip through like my other birthdays.Simply bcs im very in the mood and i wanna share it with them :)
Anddddddddd, im eighteen yaw!!
Hahah.It just feels good la kay.Like you're eighteen and suddenly you're in college,older & wiser, and a lot more drama.
Has got reallyyyyyyyy bad craving for pokka green tea at the mo :( you may think it tastes like shit but i think its amazinggg.
21/03/10
Was at bangsar earlier with suresh and shobs.Then went to a relative's house for dinner.Got wet in the rain and there goes my hair la pffffft.It was Bahai New Year. not sure if i spelled it right. But yea, Bahai are free thinkers.And they're very nice people. :)
So in my previous post i mentioned about some weird incident. Im pretty much over it now.But in summary, some fcker pranked my mom saying that i owed him 400 bucks. And he addressed himself as Raja from BB.The first person who popped up in my mind was him.So i kinda called and blabbered on the phne.He must've thought i was psycho. But yea whatever.Whoever the fck it was, you shouldve at least had the brains to prank me and not my mom!It doesnt surprise me of how lifeless ppl can be.And i am least bothered.
Was at bangsar again today with him.Not a very good day.I understand he's going through a tough time with stuffs.But idk how he expects evrything to be smooth when he's the one who fcks it up, all the time.It makes me look like a fool to keep going back to the same old love whos never gonna learn to appreciate nor respect me.And i have yet to wait till he gets the fckin fact that no bitch is gnna hold on to evry damn thing he's put me through.EVERY DAMN THING ever since we got together.Every obstacle, every insult, every single hearthbreak.Yet i fought through for one ordinary boy who they thought i wasnt good enough to be with.Every one of em who thought that way, looked like fck anyway.And im tired of proving them wrong.Tired of holding on to him who never knew how to treat me right.I have yet to wait for the time till that boy proves me he's worth each heartache.
First driving class in the morn.And i swear i'll bomb the instructor if he 'forgets' me again.lol
♥
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 6:57 AM /
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Feeling the usual cliche of regret after gulping down a whole load of fattening foooooood!
pffffft.But good food IS my guilty pleasure.And no I.CAN.NEVER.DIET.
Diet is just not in my vocab.If i had one day left to live, i would just eattttttttt. lol kidding.but yea i do eat when im bored,sad,DEPRESSED,nothin left to do in the mall.
Something smells like fish and some asshole is laughing like a maniac downstairs.
SO YEA,i shall start from where i left.
Bestfriend and I decided to ditch feeling all stupid about results and go clubbing instead!
Planned to go SPACE but switched to LeBlanc instead since that boy could get us on the guestlist.
Well yea that was the earlier plan, but it got cancelled due to some reason.But no worries, we still went to Sunway. Just the both of us. Had a drink at Bubba Gump.Mine was good tho i earlier thought it tasted like expired food.Sadly it was her drink that tasted like dog's puke.no shit.But i still love the place.ITS FULLA SHRIMP :))))
Then we went for From Paris,With Love.
jonathan ryhs meyers is love.
Movie was pretty damn good, tho he looked far better :)
Had a small outing with my lovelies.
ashley,nimitra nelly jackson,yasmin,brindha the model, evan, and dheepa indian girl :))))
Was soooo good to see them.Also met Kishan& Venkat as they were at Mid.
That was the first time after a longggg time have i ever felt that full in my life!I swear i could feel the food cramping inside my body!I literally couldve exploded.
Yasmin left after lunch cause she had to go somewhere.So the rest of us just paraded stewpid Mid Valley like losers.
We were torn between Red Box,Bowling,Arcade,Movie or shopping! The only place which we all agreed to go which was brewball was full!So we actually stood in the middle of nowhere yacking cause we had yet to decide on what to do.
After a while we got bored and just decided to walk around. what we do best! (:
Was at Gardens when we walked into this shop Bittersweet which is probably the only shop in Gardens who sold cheap/affordable clothes.
Brindha was in her best Hyper mood she kept crapping and walking into walls.hahaha.LOL believe it or not that nerd can be extremely hilarious!
Left Mid around 8.Tania and I took the KTM back to Subang then shobs fetched me from her house.
Shan,Shobs,Suresh and I went for the Education Fare at KLCC.
This time was more detail cause they had the right questions to ask in their fingertips.I didnt have to utter a thing.Which was good cause at least im not as blur anymore.Finally getting the hang of college and their complicated system.
Enquired on Inti,Taylors & Sunway.The three colleges of my choice &im interested in.Thought of going to HELP but was already tired by then.
Now that i've enquired about the colleges, im not sure of what course im taking.
But its definitely IT or Psychology.
I actually wish i had someone to decide it for me, cause im soooo sick of being confused.
Something really stupidddd and weird happened today.Im too lazy to story so till the next post.
I shall go do my hair now.
Oh and lunch with Ashley at Sunway tomoro (:
♥
p/s:i have no idea whats up with the fonts colour that keep changing by itself.
Thursday, March 11, 2010 8:22 AM /
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No im not telling what i got!
BUttttt i'll share my moments before i collected it :)
So the day before shobby surprised me by saying she wanted to go to gym in the morn.Im guessing its prolly cause i would be able to meet him before it.
The next morn, which was THEday, i met him at bv2 while bobs went to gym.We had breakfast in this stpd expensive restaurant which the electricity kept going off.
But those 2 hours really managed to make me feel a wholeeeee lot better.
Cause the first thing i thought about in the morn when i woke up is how i used to flunk mostly EVRYTHING.And by the time we were having bfast i was already shaking.Texted mom of how bloody scared i was and she replied thats she's there for me no matter what.
HOW SWEEEEET :) i love her.
Then we ditched the cafe and went to Starbucks *rollseye*.Good thing it was too early for anyone to be there *cough*.We chilled for a bit till he had to leave.And i swear i was shit scared to my bones once he left.And thats when all the stupid negative stuff start to flood my mind.
You knowwww like how i shouldve gave a fck cause it was SPM!
I was already tearing on the way to school.And it got alot worse when i reached school and saw my lovely friends whom i havent seen for quite a while.The first person i hugged and burst out to was my dearestttt Lucinda.Lol.Then i just cried all the way.THATS EXACTLY HOW SCARED I WAS.That nervous feeling which i was supposed to feel like days before today just gathered and took over.pfft.People who passed by probably wouldve thought i failed everything.Haha.
Tania & I took our results together.We were too scared so we just sat out of the hall for abit.Till we gave up and decided to just face it!Kok(my class teacher) is a bitchhhh la.I dnt wanna elaborate. grrr
I was kinda relieved cause i really thought i was gnna flunk it without even getting an A.Tho it was not good enough, i am not that nerdy to think SPM is evrythinggg.My mums ok with it, and thats exactly what i care about.Evryone else can keep their bloody comments to themselves!
Whatev it is,Im definitely certified to join college.
And to a certain fcker,YES MY RESULTS ARE WAYYY GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME TO DO PSYCHOLOGY.Like wtf! I FOR SURE can do what your kids can dreammmm of doing!
Over all, spm results this year was pretty screwed.Cause i know some ppl who totally deserve to have gotten better results.
And baby, you have me :)
I am soooooooooo very proud of you!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 12:07 AM /
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ONE BLOODY DAY.
Sunday, March 7, 2010 1:24 AM /
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We were on the way back from dinner and Suresh randomly thought of calling ash.
And IT GOT THROUGHHH.
My lovely lovelyyy ash.Was so good to hear her sweet litte voice.It was probably 1.30am in Aussie when we called.I still miss her as much as i did on 10th of Feb when she left to the land down under.I am pretty attached to my gorgeous cousin more than you think i am.Only because shes an amazing person inside out.Shes just so nice without even trying hard.I wouldnt be even talking to Alwin if its not because of her.Imagine how much i've got to thank her for :)And she made my Pj days alot more exciting and fun.The family seems so dull without your presence.I could still go to ur hse and walk up to ur room looking for you.Hahah no shit.And that beautiful smile on your face deserves to be there for now & forever.
Cant cant wait for you to be back.
ILY (:
And to Tania Ashley Pereira.
You've got meeee :)
*BIGHUG*
Friday, March 5, 2010 7:47 AM /
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i reallyyyy have got nothing to write. but i'll just crap anyway :)))
so roshi gave me advice on how my blog should be more colourful, here you go :)
It was not a very good day. blady driving instructor 'forgot' to fetch me. WTHECKKK. i could care less tho, was really not in the mood to be on the wheel yet.my boyfriend wasnt being much've a darling either :( i've been pretty attached to him lately but at the mo, it hasnt been good enough for him.i shall not go on about him, not yet. keep reading for more :p
Since fcker didnt appear, bobs(my sister) had to come all the way back to fetch me.Sooo surprised she wasnt cranky.Thought of wandering arnd bdr puteri to hunt for clothes but was fckin broke.So i just decided to head home instead.
Was just online the whole baldy dayyyy till mom came home.Then the drama starts.
We were talking just fine till she brought something up.WHICH PISSED THE FCK OUTTA ME. i really dont know whyyy but i was sooo blady mad.
I was probably so frustrated cause she hasnt been giving me enough cash to hang out and been really grumpy about it, yet i listened to her and sat at home like a lifeless bitch. Wasting all my precious dayS which were supposed to be spent out somewhere,ANYWHERE like how i planned before SPM.dont think im pathetic, yes i do go out.BUT NOT EVERYDAYYYY. And yea i make it a point to go to Asia Cafe every Thursdays ignoring the fact i'm wasting money by taking a cab. But ITS ESSENTIAL :)
And now that it hit me that results are coming out in a week, which means i've got one fckin week to enjoy.While the rest 3 months just vanished without me even doing what i planned on doing.And so i was frustrated!I had no ideaaaa what i was talking that it made her so emo.I felt fckin badddd to my bones i tell you.I shouldve never did that no matter how gila i was or how i had all the rights to, cause the money she was supposed to be spending on me was out with someone else!grrr. But yea shes been an amazing mom in every single way.and no matter what, she is the most important person in my life& shes been such an inspiration for my sister and I on how shes lived through all the hard times and fought herself through cancer.
The funny part? she drove off to padang cause she needed some time alone and came back in 10 minutes complaining there were too many drug addicts.HAHAHAHA.
I've tried sucking up in every single way but i know her well. Shes exactly like me. We can NEVER GET OVER ANYTHING! so im sure shes gonna bring it up sooner or later(probably even next Thursday *bitesfinger*)
Other than mother drama, Suresh and I just discovered this new food court near my hse with SHISHA!!And like i thought puchong was the only loser place with no shisha.I guess i've gotta change my perception on this place cause its obvious they've finally put some effort in bringing it up.AND NO I CANNOT WAIT FOR THAT SHOPPING MALL NEAR MY HSE TO BE DONE!*bigggsmile*
That would be HEAVEN cause its an exact 5 minutes walk away.and i can finally stop thinking of moving out.
Was supposed to have dinner at Bubba Gump with Alwin and rosh today but losergirl had add math ttn so we'll probably do it tomoro.
I shall probably call him now cause i hanged up and ACTUALLY feel bad.Its crazy how that boy has changed me and i love him so very much for it.And the ppl arnd me may think I've gone mad cause they know how many times i've been a bitch and adamant on breaking up. yet through all those sucky,heartbreaking times I still keep coming back to him cause....to be honest, i dont even know why.Im not sure if we're meant to be.I used to think of it that way but hes gave me all the reasons to prove that wrong.I still love him anyway.
cause after all, HE'S MY WONDER WALL.
First everrrrrr :)
Thursday, March 4, 2010 6:29 AM /
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After a whole load of hardwork and caffeine, my LOVELY BLOG IS FINALLYYYY DONE :) And now that its finally done, i havent realy been in the mood to blog. But here i go anyway.Well to be honest, its not actually done. I have yet to update my profile. But im reluctant in doing it cause its just a tough thing describing yourself. The backgrounds too colourful & im still thinking if i should or not put a chatbox in my blog and several other things.And seriously its really not easy doing a damn blog la.Esp aft all my failed attempts, i must say im proud :) The credit also goes to blogbulk & youtube blog tutorial which did alotttt of help.Without these, i would still be cracking my head on how to work the fckin layout. I HAD NO IDEA IT WAS JUST ABOUT PLAYING WITH THOSE DAMN HTMLS! Well not like it was even written next to the download button.
So lately, i've been insomniac. Just got a long lecture from mom for sleeping at 5am almost everyday.And since i've been insomniac,i've been getting up at 1++ in the aftnoon these few days.Not like you can blame me. Tell me which asshole falls asleep right away when they go to bed.The weathers also been a bitch.The air-conditioner is not much of an help either.The WORLD IS REALLY COMING TO ITS END.and im hopinggggg it would be by coming thursday.That would be an exception of me feeling scared/sad of the world coming to an end.You might have thought 2012 was stupid.But I WAS SCARED kay.Can u imagine the land eating you up,and whats worse if you're still breathing when you reach its core.Coming back to Thursday, which is 11/03/2010.The day i've been running away from is finally here.An exact one week away.I really have no idea what to expect/do. !Cause i obviously never gave it my all.I took it way too cool.And i definitely failed to realize its motherfcking SPM.It may not seem like a great deal to some of us our age.But to our rents, ITS EVERYTHING!Its unfortunately programmed in their head that its the most important thing on earth for their kids/pride/reputation, you name it.And its typical.but they'll never know what it feels like to be walking in our shoes,to be sitting in a class with a psychotic menopausal teacher who expects us to already know evrything when shes supposed to be the one teaching,shit loadve homework/peka,moral project which YOU CAN NEVER GET RIGHT!, && ADDMATHHHHH.*hoosaaa*.Well yea they're lucky enough to be earning but they obviously flunked their exams as well.And to my mum, this is the only way she can metaphorically kill me for all the outings,money wasted on clothes/shoes/books/ttn/pointless seminars etc.And boyyyy am i fckin scared!
I hate the feeling to be walking up to Pn.Kok with my heart beating as fast as a bullet train & the stupiddddd suspense in my head.Then when she finally hands over my result slip*jengjengjengg*I wish i could just stop there. I dont wanna face it AT ALL. never!Cause i know im gonna break down at the end of the day. Or i wish i could just RUN AWAY. for at least a day. Then they would be too worried of my safety instead of the fckin result. But i really am not that much of a drama queen*cough*.
So i guess i'll just have to face reality as much as i hate it.Yet, it would be much easier if i only have to deal with my mom.sadly, im indian & i've gotta deal with a whole bunch of people called family who would be nothing but ecstatic to watch me fall apart(well, most of them).Then i've got the uncles to add on my misery as they start talking abt the future. PFFFFSH!
I've decided to not dwell about how i shouldve studied like 2 months before instead of 3 weeks ,how i shouldve focused more in ttn/class,how i shouldve pushed myself on chemistry, tho whatev i did was not what i wanted, but its definitely not gonna change anything.
Till then, i've got a week long to think of how to escape (: